didnt quite like blogging actually but read a few ppl blog n tht y not just put my thts in here.. gd way to 'talk' when got no one to talk to.. hehe..
well well well.. so here goes..
whr shall i start.. hmm..
okie.. so.. recently, pon-teng from sch many days..
really sian man.. no proper lessons, long breaks, waste time.. maybe due to projects after projects. yupp! got many this term.. sian.. kinda affect my attendance n teacher talk to me n said if skip sch somemore... cant sit for exam!!! omg.. last yr le.. but just no motivation for this yr dunno y too
currently working in juron point still.. just a p.t job.. near home and can commit more days so kinda gd lah.. but still cant afford many things.. have to support my everyday expenses, buy toiletries, pay bills, and mum also asking money from me.... ARGH!!
so end up e most only can afford for a movie or 2 monthly...
quite sad with my life at times..
i really envy girls out thr n friends ard me tt have branded stuff (thou i not really fancy all those..) can go shop every wk and get their nice pretty clothes, do their hair nice nice.. go manicure n pedicure.. buy gd skincare n make up.. hAis... SaD maN.. really, smtimes just think of all these makes me feel depress..
i know my friends sure say tt girls should be pampered n doted, but i also hoping for tt day to come whr i dun hv to worry so much... yeah.. maybe someday but not in e near future..
well.. so sometimes friends ask me out go shop or ktv, u know wad'll br my ans bah..
and cos of my sItuation, some ppl feel tt when i go out with my close friends n certain things i cant afford ehich at ties they offer to help pay, they feel tt i make use of my friends money.. on e surface ppl who dunno me will think this way but.. it's a terrible feeling.. tt's y nowadays when ppl ask me out i cant afford, i turn them down.. yeah this is my life..
anyway, gotta let cha all know tt i've a guy his name is IVAN CHOO JUN HAO. we've been together for quite some time now.. my longest r/ship thou we had 2 breakups in betwwen.. yah.. sometimes from what he says, i feel tt i'm very demanding of him but some things some ppl cant change overnight.. so sometimes really hv some big fights.. but most of e times, he will apologise n surprise me with some things.. well.. thr's no perfection in this world right.. so for just hv to accept e way he is just e way i want him to accept me.. but he's quite sweet at times lah.. thou his life is also not very gd.. but he'll still try to cheer me up but deep down he's feeling like thr's no tmr in his life.. so.. yupp.. still loving him til now..
alrite.. shall stop here den..
i'm looking for nicer layouts for my blog anyone know whr to get them??? share with me ya!!
("v") Lynn ("v")
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