i'm sad

suddenly, i feel that i dun love my bf anymore.
its more of a habit and used to having him around.
maybe i only treat him as someone who love me and spend time with me.
but i am not willing to sacrifice and love him back the same as i did b4.

but after we talked on the phone just now, i felt sad all of a sudden.
maybe because i know that i dun wanna be with him for some reasons,
but also can't bear to give up as we had many happy moments and memories.
my tears just gush out of my eyes and i couldn't control myself.

he said; maybe our time is almost up and our fate is near.
maybe my love for him has died, or it's still living in the past.
but i also feel that i care too much abt his flaws, his look etc..

once again, i feel the same way, the same situation i have faced past previous r/ships.
i hate this!

maybe i should not have any r/ship at all.
maybe its because i dun wanna commit.
maybe the problem is me!
just me....

new yr 2010!

hi all.. happy new yr...

i'm still doing my attachment at parkroyal hotel.. another 3 mths to go til 19th march..
yeah!! finishing soon..

hope everything will be better for me n my family this yr!!

cheers everyone!:)